Friday, February 22, 2019

Exposed Wire! Fri 2/22/19 (Post #40)

Today I (Mom) feel like an exposed wire.  I feel on edge.  Like I am sparking with every interaction I have.  I feel like everyone are idiots (or would that be everyone IS idiots?).

I feel like anxiety is such a buzzword.  Everyone says "I have anxiety".  I don't want to just say I am having anxiety because it is "cool" thing to say...but I am definitely feeling anxious today.

So please take everything I say with a grain of salt.  My perception is probably scewed today.  hahaha.  Just know I am trying.  Trying to hold it together.  Trying to be patient.  Trying to hold my tongue.  Trying to breathe.

2:45 PM
She started ampicillin for her UTI.

She is doing a 2nd spontaneous breathing trial right now (still intubated, but letting her breathe on her own).  As far as breathing she looks great.  But she is irritated and sleepy and her HR is higher.

I am pretty sure they will want to extubate today (take out breathing tube).  I am not sure that is a good plan.

I feel like she is not loving the breathing on her own and it is making her sleepy or uncomfortable.

I am not sure I can talk them out of this one...since her breathing looks so good.

I am not sure it's worth the fight either.

I do think she would do fine being extubated and going to bipap.  But I also feel like she is more comfortable being intubated than being on bipap 24 hours a day.  The Dr. insists that this is not true.  I don't know what to say.  Being intubated she is awake and not needing any pain meds or sedation.  She hates the bipap...we have to give her trazodone (a sleeping pill) at night just to tolerate the bipap so she doesn't sit there and shake her head back and forth trying to get it off.

I'm sure part of it is that they need the PICU bedspace.

So we will probably end up extubating and using bipap for a few days.

Infectious Disease came by.  They said that her pseudomonas IS susceptible to these new antibiotics they were looking at.  So we will be switching her to 2 new antibiotics for the pseudomonas.  They are antibiotics I have never heard of.  They are not used in pediatrics normally, but ID feels like it is a better option than the one that she is on now.

 A lung and a tree.  We breathe out what the trees breathe in and the trees breathe out what we breathe in.  God is great!


5:00 PM
She did great on her 2nd breathing trial.

They are going to start the 2 new antibiotics (the ones for the pseudomonas lung infection) today.  One of the drugs is related to the rocephin that sent her into anaphylactic shock.  So they will try 1% of the dose, and watch her for an hour.  Then 10% of the dose and watch her for 2 hours.  Then give her the full dose.

They want to give the first dose of antibiotic while she is still intubated in case she goes into anaphylactic shock again.

They want her off of feeds for 6 hours before extubating, so if they have to re-intubate (use sedation) then her stomach will be empty.

So they will turn off feeds at 2 AM and then they will extubate sometime after 8 AM tomorrow morning.  She will go straight onto her home bipap settings.

You can go to the "floor" (out of ICU) if you are on your home bipap settings.  So she could be on the floor as soon as tomorrow.  I think more likely it will be Sunday.

The saying among special needs families at PCH is "up a floor, closer to the door".  ICU is on floor 2, "the floor" is on floor 3 (usually), so when you move up a floor, you are closer to going home (out the door).

I am feeling worried about extubating her.  I feel like her airway is secure now (being intubated) and it is scary when the airway is unsecure (when she is sick and we are struggling to maintain good sats).  But she is doing really really good.  My worries are unfounded.  But that is still where my brain is settling.  Come on brain...get with the program...pull it together.


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Fever Explained! HOORAY! Fri 2/22/19 @ 1 PM (Post # 39)

They changed her nasty PICC dressing yesterday.
Nasty PICC dressing

Clean PICC dressing

Yesterday they weened her Peep to 6 and today to 5.

The general rule of thumb is that if they tolerate a peep of 6 and are below 50% FiO2 they will attempt a spontaneous breathing trial.  She only has to pass a trial of 1 hour and then they will extubate.

They wanted to do the trial while she was still asleep at 6 AM this morning.  I spoke with the Dr. and said I thought it would be better when she was awake.  The Dr. said "Does she have sleep apnea?"

I was thinking...duh?!?!?!?!  She uses bi-pap at night!  Of course she has sleep apnea.

But instead I said, "Yes, she has both obstructive and central sleep apnea."

The Dr. said, OK let's wait until she is awake to do the breathing trial.

At 9 AM she was awake and we tried a trial for an hour.  Breathing-wise she did great.  But she went to sleep.  I felt like it wore her out completely.

I tried conveying this to the Dr. and RT, they seemed unconvinced.

They did agree to hold off extubating and try another breathing trial later today.

It may just be that she hasn't used her breathing muscles (on her own) for a long time.

She is improving well.

When they extubate, they want to go to her home bipap settings.  The bipap settings are actually higher than the settings on the vent right now.

I bet they will extubate today or possibly tomorrow.

This is great.

They are taking away a few vest treatments and a few nebulized meds.  Great!

The other FANTASTIC NEWS is that she has a UTI!  This explains the fever!  Yea!  They are starting her on ampicillin until they get the susceptibilities back.  95% of UTI's last year were susceptible to ampicillan.








Treats from friends!  Thank you GS and DS and BS and kids!


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Thursday, February 21, 2019

PEEP of 8---Thur morn 10 AM---(Post # 38)

Early this morning (6 AM or so) they weaned her PEEP to 8.  She is doing great.  Satting mid 90's.  Still has a slightly elevated temp.

Really not much to report.  I am thrilled that we are making progress.

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Wednesday, February 20, 2019

SIMV---Wed Afternoon 2/20/19-----(Post # 37)

11:45 AM

I really don't like infectious disease.  They do not have a good bedside manner first of all.  They came in today and said they were talking to pharmacy about switching her antibiotic.  They said it is a new drug that they..
#1) don't know if they can give to pediatrics
#2) they don't know if they can even get it here because it is new antibiotic

I said is her pseudomonas susceptible to it?...they said
#3) they don't know if it is susceptible

Seriously?

I told them very clearly twice "I do not want to switch her antibiotic to something unless it is susceptible to it".

They said they wanted to get her off of the "toxic" antibiotic she is on.

Great...me too!  But so far it is the only drug that will kill her pseudomonas.

As they were leaving (I probably should have held my tongue) but I said, " Sounds like it is a little early to be talking to Mom about this."


12:00
The Dr.'s rounded really late today.  There have been 2 code blue's this morning in the ICU.  Code blue means someone has stopped breathing or their heart has stopped or both and they need help trying to revive the person.

Ellie has been on the receiving end of the code blue at least twice (not this hospital stay).  It is terrifying as a parent.  There are about 20 Dr.'s and nurses that literally drop what they are doing and literally RUN to the bed.  Everything is going on at once.  All at the same time, people are all talking and doing their job and working and checking and it is organized chaos.  And the only thing you can do as a parent is step aside and PRAY with everything you've got.

Every time (while in that hospital) I hear the special little chimes followed by the monotone announcement "Code blue, bed ____________" my heart stops and it takes me a moment to catch my breath for a moment.  I know exactly what it means, I have been there.  And it often makes me cry, even though it is not happening to Ellie.

It is PTSD.  No doubt about it.  It is traumatic being here.

Oh great (sarcasm)...A Life-Flight just came in....more PTSD.  That means PICU will be getting a new admit in a few minutes.

I think all of these memories are what make PICU so hard.  And even this particular hospital stay so hard.  We have been here before.  She has been this sick before with very similar circumstances.  The Dr.'s have told us to say our last good-byes when we have been in similar circumstances.  (We never got to that point with this hospital stay, thankfully).

Back to Ellie (in the present)...

She sat up in her wheelchair for 40 minutes.  She was getting tired (droopy eyelids) and her sats were struggling at about 88.  The nurse wanted to try and push her to 60 minutes.  But I said I think she's tired and that we should lay her back down.  So we did.

Her sats have been good today 93-97.

Her fever has finally broken.  Yea!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

They lowered her PEEP (Constant pressure) from 11 to 10.

They also changed her vent mode from Pressure support to SIMV.  Pressure mode is used on sicker kids.  It delivers a certain amount of air no matter what the patient does.  SIMV mode takes more cues from the patient.  It will kick in and give more support if needed.  It will give breaths when triggered by the patient and stop giving breaths when the patient starts exhaling.  It is a step in the right direction.  It will still give a set number of breaths per minute if she doesn't breathe, but it tries to give the patient more control and do a little more of the work themselves.

I am feeling very encouraged by her progress today!

Here are some pics of the vent after switching to SIMV mode.  Looking at the top graph (ignore the bottom graph in each pic).  The breaths above the line are inhalation and the breaths below the line are exhalation.  The grey are ones that she did herself and the black is where the vent had to kick in.  She is doing awesome!  After switching to SIMV her sats have been 99%!  Amazing!









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I love this next one!  hahahahahahah

Up---Wed 2/20/19 (Post # 36)

10:00 AM
She is up!  For the first time in 14 days.  It is making her tired and her sats are not great (high 80's).  It is still good for her lungs.  But I don't think it will last long.


Turned a corner????? Wed 2/20/2019 (Post # 35)

7:00 AM
I am hoping we have turned a corner.  I woke up to these amazing numbers!



HR was under 100---we haven't seen that this whole hospital stay!
Sats in the high 90's---woo hoo!
Respirations at her normal rate
Blood pressure looks good.

I hate to even think that she might be getting better, because I don't want to feel disappointed if it is not true.

She still has a fever, but her body feels cooler to the touch  (more normal for her).

They were able to lower her PEEP (constant pressure) to 11 yesterday and she was still there this morning.

She is definitely showing signs of improvement.

I am just HYPER-stitious when it comes to Ellie and medical things.  I always worry about saying she is doing well medically because I am afraid that means something bad is coming.  It's not true, but sometimes it feels true.

9:30 AM
OK---she didn't maintain those great monitor numbers like first thing this morning.  She is still doing fine...but I'm not quite as hopeful as I was first thing this morning.

HR 110-115
Sats 92-93
Respirations are still low (good---normal) 11

Other news
My friend Christina brought me 4 (yes I said 4) tapioca's from the U!!!!!!!  I can now make it through the next 4 days!  hahahahahaha.  She also got the low down on the Tapioca from the U...they make it on Sunday and serve it on Sun, Mon, Tues!  Good to know!

My parents and I ate Zupas.....yummmm!  Thanks Mom and Dad.  And they brought me treats!  Yay!!!

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This is totally me!  (Except usually I just cringe and think mean things about the person...hahahaha)



This next one is totally Ellie!

Tuesday, February 19, 2019

Fever---Tues 2/19/19 3:30 PM (Post #34)


If you think it takes a long time to watch paint dry...then you have never watched
"bugs" die.  Paint only takes 24-48 hours....bugs take basically  forever...hahahaha!

Things have been pretty boring.  I guess that's fine...just boring.

Last night she started having a high grade fever.  It has continued through the night and today.  Tylenol is not bringing it down.

I am worried about it.

Last night she was breathing strangely also.  The Dr.'s felt like she wasn't syncing with the ventilator so they gave her some morphine.  That seemed to help.

I didn't sleep well because my brain got carried away with worry.  Ellie was also awake from at least 2 AM on.


This morning she is syncing well with the vent, but she still has a fever.

They did additional blood work during the night due to the fever. They don't think the fever is anything new, nothing is showing up on bloodwork.

Her CRP was down from 12 to 11 (headed in the right direction).  CRP is the level of inflammation in the body.

They lowered her PEEP (Constant pressure) from 13 to 12 this morning.  She has managed that OK until about 3 PM.  Now she is a little agitated and biting on her tube and needs a little morphine.

The Dr. said if she could make it down to 40% on her FiO2 they would think about lowering the PEEP to 11.  We have not gotten there yet.  That felt fast to me.  I don't want to push her too hard.

Her BG has been stable, so we have extended the BG checks out to every 12 hours.

I am mostly worried about her fever.  I am worried she could have something else going on that we are not treating.  The Dr.'s think it is just really hard to kill pseudomonas and it will take time.

I asked how much time...like weeks?  or months?

They said days to weeks.  Not months.

They are confident they will be able to kill the pseudomonas.  They want us to consider going on Tobi all of the time at home to keep the pseudomonas at bay.

I am fine doing Tobi all of he time if we can get it approved by insurance.  We will have to see.


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Monday, February 18, 2019

A few forgotten things---Mon 2/18/19 (Post # 33)

A few things I have forgotten to mention...

TK made Ellie a fish that says "Get well soon"


Sat night Ellie and I both got Priesthood Blessings.  I felt comforted and reassured that we were being watched over.  I believe that God has given worthy men the power to act in God's name (called the Priesthood).  I believe ordinances such as baptism and temple covenants (promises) are performed by this Priesthood power.  Men with the priesthood can also give healing blessings (prayers) and blessings of comfort.

If you don't know personally that God loves you, find a quiet time and ask him.  Then listen and feel for an answer.



Yesterday my good friends came and ate lunch with me.  It was a perfect break for me!  Thank you!

Cafeteria Lunch with food friends!

Last night (Sun night) I went home for the first time in 11 days.  I had an important church obligation to fill, then Jason and I switched places.  He stayed at the hospital last night and I stayed at home.

He said he couldn't sleep on the chair.  And I couldn't sleep at home.  So whew, we are trading back tonight.

Sabrina (5 YO) is sick at home with the flu.  It is hard not being able to take care of both Ellie and Sabrina.  It is hard to feel like you can't be everything to everyone all of the time.  Obviously that is unrealistic...but it is still hard.

Jason is fully capable to take care of her, I am so grateful for a loving, caring, competent, compassionate, kind husband.

It is also difficult to think about asking someone to watch a sick child so Jason can go to work, and/or difficult to think about Jason taking work off to take care of Sabrina.  So it is just a tough situation.  It happens, we will figure it out, it is just that crazy time of year when sickness runs rampant.

This is the worst Flu year in a LONG time!  The Flu shot had a moderate efficacy this year.





Her PICC looks gross (bloody) but it is all sterile.  It was a bleeder.  They change the dressings on Thursdays.  So it just has to stay gross until Thurs.

Gross/bloody PICC line



One of Ellie's church leaders came and visited today and painted her nails.  Ellie LOVED LOVED LOVED it!  She had the best vital signs and was the most interactive she has been in a long long time!  Thank you BC!

Ellie with her pretty painted nails!



I am trying to take care of myself in the hospital.  It is easy to get so focused on Ellie and stress/worry, that I forget to take care of myself.  Here is an image I recently saw on FB that I love.  How do you take care of yourself?  I think I am a physical touch...I love baths and soft blankets!  Which is so weird...because as far as giving/receiving love from others...physical touch is at the VERY VERY VERY bottom of my list.





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Knock knock
Who’s there?
HIPPA
HIPPA who?
I can’t tell you that.

911 had an interesting call last week at the local upholstery shop... guy fell into an automatic slipcover machine....Don't worry, though. the hospital said he's fully recovered.

My Aunt Lavinia hasn't been feeling well for the past couple of weeks so we called the doctor. The Dr. came out to the house.  When he was done, he asked for a glass of water, so we steered him out to the well.  The Dr. was leaning over a little too far, and fell into the well. I pulled him out and told him to treat the sick, and leave the well alone.

A woman brought a very limp duck into a veterinary surgeon. As she laid her pet on the table, the vet pulled out his stethoscope and listened to the bird's chest.  After a moment or two, the vet shook his head and sadly said, "I'm sorry, your duck, Cuddles, has passed away."  The distressed woman wailed, "Are you sure?"  "Yes, I am sure. Your duck is dead," replied the vet.  "How can you be so sure?" she protested. "I mean you haven't done any testing on him or anything. He might just be in a coma or something."  The vet rolled his eyes, turned around and left the room.  He returned a few minutes later with a black Labrador Retriever. As the duck's owner looked on in amazement, the dog stood on his hind legs, put his front paws on the examination table and sniffed the duck from top to bottom. He then looked up at the vet with sad eyes and shook his head.  The vet patted the dog on the head and took it out of the room. A few minutes later he returned with a cat. The cat jumped on the table and also delicately sniffed the bird from head to foot. The cat sat back on its haunches, shook its head, meowed softly and strolled out of the room.  The vet looked at the woman and said, "I'm sorry, but as I said, this is most definitely, 100% certifiably, a dead duck."  The vet turned to his computer terminal, hit a few keys and produced a bill, which he handed to the woman. The duck's owner, still in shock, took the bill. "$150!" she cried, "$150 just to tell me my duck is dead!" The vet shrugged, "I'm sorry. If you had just taken my word for it, the bill would have been $20, but with the Lab Report and the Cat Scan, it's now $150."

Sunday, February 17, 2019

PICC line (Post #32)

PICC line


She got a PICC line today.  She will need the Colistin (antibiotic) for several weeks.  So they wanted a PICC so that she didn't blow through IV's (and you can't go home with an IV, but you can with a PICC.)

They can place a PICC at the bedside sometimes.  So the PICC nurses had come up several times (over several days).  They found some good ones, but they were mostly on the inside of her arms.  That is their preferred spot for PICC's.  It is the easiest to thread up to the heart through the vein inside the arm.

But I was really concerned that inside the arm would create pressure spots for her.  She keeps her arms tight to her body and especially once she gets back into her wheelchair,  inside the arm would have a lot of pressure.

We son't need more pressure sores.

So I really pushed to have them place it in the cephalic vein which is on the outside of the arm.  It is much harder to do a PICC in the cephalic vein at the bedside.  This meant she needed to go down to IR (Interventional Radiology).  They use ultrasound and a continuous x-ray to see where they are going.  They can see exactly where the wire is going and direct it better.  Whereas, at the bedside they are fishing the PICC blindly through veins.

The Radiologist was unable to place the first PICC he tried (right arm cephalic vein).  But he was able to get  the cephalic vein on the left arm.

It is wrapped with coban right now because it was bleeding alot, so the radiologist wanted extra pressure on it for awhile.




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 “Statistically…. 9 out of 10 injections are in vein.”

Ellie: ‘Doctor, doctor, will I be able to play the violin after I get a PICC line?’
Doctor: ‘Yes, of course…’
Ellie: ‘Great! I never could before!’

On a positive note-Sun 2/17/19 11 AM (Post #31)


This is the bridge connecting PCH to the U.  I went over for lunch yesterday to try and get more tapioca....they were out!!!!!!


I feel like she is slightly improved this AM.  She has had 3 doses of inhaled Tobi (antibiotic) and 2 doses of Colisitin (antibiotic).  Those are both the actual antibiotics that her pneumonia is susceptible to...so hopefully this thing will be on the curb soon.

Her HR has been 97-98 so they turned down the O2 on her vent from 50 to 40% and now she is satting 94 (still good).

This morning they felt like the base of her right lung was more collapsed, so the Dr wanted to increase her i-time.  That is the inspiration time.  That is the amount of time it takes to deliver a breath in.  The Dr. felt like because of her scoliosis that the right base has a harder time inflating, so she wanted to give a little longer breath to allow the right base to inflate.  We increased from 1 sec to 1.4 sec.

Yesterday they lowered her PEEP (constant pressure) from 14 to 13 (baby step) and she has tolerated it all the way to today...that is good!

She is awake today.

Her HR is down from 120's to 110's.

She has to have the bite block in all the time so that she doesn't bite on the tube...but she is mainly OK with the tube and also the bite block.  The bite block is the white piece of plastic sticking out by her cheek.

Bite block is sticking out to the right.  It has a piece of softer plastic/rubber or something that goes between her teeth.


Her BG have been stable and she has gotten 3 doses of her proglycem.  So I feel comfortable going to 6 hour BG checks.

Her temp is still slightly high...but I wouldn't even call it a low grade fever...just slightly warm for her.

2 days ago they gave her 2 units of albumin (protein in blood) and yesterday they gave 1 unit of red blood cells and the good news is that today her platelettes corrected themselves.

CRP hasn't improved yet.  CRP is a number they watch to see how the level of inflammation (sickness) is in the body.

Today is a good day.

Yesterday we washed her hair!  So that was good too.



I have had the BEST nurses this hospital stay!  Amazing!  It makes all the difference in the world.

Her sisters came to visit last night (Fri night).  Millie was there also, but didn't want a pic in front of Spider Man...hahaha!

Saturday, February 16, 2019

Small Improvements and then bad news ---Sat 2/16/19--- (Post #30)

Last night before bed they wanted to go 9 hours between blood sugar *draws.  I said no way.  That is way to long.  She is not getting her proglycem.  The only reason her BG is high right now is because she is sick.  As she gets better her BG will return to VERY low (her normal.)  And when that happens we need to restart her proglycem to block her insulin to bring her BG to normal.

Since we don't know when her BG is going to go lower, we cannot risk going longer than 4 hours between checking her BG.

They agreed to do what I said, I don't know if they agreed with me, but they did it, so that's what matters.

9 AM
All through the night her sats were wayyyyyy better than they have been.  I would say we have been satting low 90's (92-93) during the day yesterday.  Then every time I woke up during the night her sats were 97-98!  Woo hoo!

When I got up this morning and said hello to Ellie I noticed right away she felt cold.  Cold is normal.  (This next sentence is going to sound terrible..but it's true)  She has been fevering and with her fevers she has felt like a "normal" body temperature or maybe even slightly warm.

Because she felt cold I asked her nurse what her temp was and she said 34 point something (the nurse didn't say point something...I just can't remember...hahahahaha!).  That is in Ellie's normal range.  Yea!

Ellie's normal temp is 93 F (33.9 C) to 95.5 F (35.3 C).  So 34 is smack dab in her normal range!

I tossed a warm (fuzzy) blanket on her.  Her temp is something we constant fight.  It is her normal.  When we are not fighting her temp...it means she is sick.  I know it sounds weird...but that's the way it is.

Rounding 9:30 AM
The Dr.'s rounded on Ellie and said that they wanted to do a blood transfusion.  They went over the risks (allergic reaction, infection) and I said great.  They are giving her red blood cells.

Her platelette's are also low...but they are just watching them for now.

Since her BG have been stable (between 100 and 200) they wanted to extend the times we check her BG to 6 hours.  I once again said I was not comfortable going longer than 4 (even 4 is pushing my comfort limits).  They said that was fine, we could keep 4 hour BG checks.

They are worried about taking so much blood...but I feel like we should definitely not go longer than 4 hours at this point.

Her xray looks improved this morning.  One of the signs they look for is if you can see the *diaphragm.  If the lungs are bad you can't see the diaphragm behind the lungs.  If the lungs have better *aeration then you will be able to see the diaphragm through the lungs.  On this morning's xray you CAN now see the diaphragm.

They are going to try lowering her PEEP (constant pressure ) from 14 to 13.  They haven't done it yet (as of 11:25 AM).

11:30  AM
We just had a bunch of specialists come by one after another...I will see if I can remember everything.

First they started the red blood cells.

Then they checked her BG and it was 62 (low).  Thank goodness I stuck with my guns of checking every 4 hours.  They ordered a bolus of D10.  D stands for dextrose.  It is basically sugar water they put through her IV.  They checked her BG 15 min later and it was 117 (normal).  I requested that they recheck every 15 minutes for at least an hour.  She has had times in the past when she has been low and we bring it up and then it crashes back down, then we bring it back up and it crashes back down.  The Dr.'s agreed to recheck every 15 min.

Dermatology
Ear sore grew yeast.  Doing mupirocin ointment.

Scalp sores grew the kind of staph that is on everyone's skin.  They are not worried about them.  If they get worse, we will biopsy, but if they get better, then don't worry about it.

Wound Nurse
Ear wound is looking much better.  Scalp is looking about the same, possibly slightly better.

After wound nurse left we saw that ...

Bum has an open tear from so much diarrhea. Doing barrier cream.  I am trying to drill into the nurses heads to LEAVE THE CREAM ALONE.  Do not wipe it off to inspect her skin or clean her, that causes more damage to the skin.  If there is poop, yes, clean it off, but otherwise...leave it alone.

New wound inside right elbow.  We saw it after wound nurse left.  She has had this kind of wound inside her palm before.  It happens right on the crease and is caused by moisture and the crease always staying like that...so because she doesn't straighten her arms moisture just sits in that little crease.  I stuck some silver infused fabric in the crease.  We can talk to wound about it tomorrow.  The fabric is wicking and silver has natural antibacterial properties.

Infectious Disease
Protected brush (sample from lungs) grew out a VERY resistant pseudomonas.  It is a super bug.  It is MDRO (Multi-Drug Resistant Organism).  It is basically resistant to all antibiotics.  This is bad news.  There are only 2 things they can put her on.  And they are putting her on both.  One is an *inhaled tobi (tobrimicin).  Lots of kids with CF (Cystic Fibrosis) inhale tobi all of the time.  (Remember that pseudomonas is common in people with CF, people with trachs and people who get recurring lung infections (pneumonias).)  The other antibiotic is an older antibiotics with some potentially bad side effects.  It is called colistin.  It can affect liver function.  Great!  But it is literally our only option.

We now have to up her *precautions while in the hospital. They don't want the MDRO to spread to other patients.

GRRRRR...I am so bummed about this MDRO.  She had a super bug before.  It grew from her lower back infection that she got with her spinal surgery.  It meant a PICC line at home and 6 months of antibiotics.  Then it came back and we had to do another 6 months of antibiotics.

Because the infection was inside of her they couldn't retest if the super bug was gone...she had to be on precautions for 5 years every time we came to the hospital.  That means she couldn't leave her room to go on a walk, she couldn't go to the play room, she couldn't go to the music room, she couldn't take a bath (except in the bed).

We just barely hit the 5 year mark a few months ago...we were super bug free!  Until now...grrrrrrrr.

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I was emotionally fine this morning.  Actually I was great.  I felt like Ellie had shown some improvement, and she had.

Now I am a wreck.  I am worried that they won't be able to kill the super bug.  I am worried that this could be an ongoing problem.  I am worried that we won't be approved for the medications she will probably need at home.  Lots of worries.

I hate telling people (on the blog) that she has a super bug.  I feel like she then becomes a leper and an outcast.  I worry that people will be afraid of her and not want to love or touch her.

Once she is on the antibiotics the superbug will be at bay and we should be able to kill it.  So it will be fine.  I am just really stressed and trying to absorb this new news.  People with normal immune systems are able to fight off things like this.  People with normal lungs and normal immune systems do not grow pseudomonas.

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The way she looks right now...she is fine.  I need to bring my thoughts back to the present.

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Jokes:
A bacteria goes into a bar.  The bartender says, " We don't serve your kind here".  The bacteria says, "What do you mean, I'm staph!"

Why did the germ cross the road?
To get to the other slide

What did 1 germ say to another germ?
You make me sick

Which runs faster a hot or a cold?
A hot, because anyone can catch a cold

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Definitions
A1C= A longer-term look at your BG.  It shows how your BG has been over the last 90 days.  It is a way to see if the person has diabetes.

Acute= A short-term immediate problem/illness.  As opposed to a chronic condition (ongoing condition).

Aeration= Getting air to all areas of the lungs.

Albumin= helps keep fluids in the blood vessels instead of in the cells.  Her hands and feet are still puffy so hopefully this will help.  Albumin is a blood product, it is protein in the blood.  He thinks we have the right amount of fluid in her body, but it is in the wrong areas (it is in the cells instead of in the blood).

Attending= The head Dr. while inpatient.  There are usually a Nurse Practitioner (NP) or residents or fellows under the attending.

Baer Hugger= A machine hooked with a hose to a disposable blanket.  The blanket has small holes in 1 side like an air hockey table.  The machine blows hot air into the blanket and the air comes out of the holes onto the person to warm them up.  It is the best way to warm her up while in the hospital.  I love the baer hugger, I wish we could get one at home, but we cannot.

Bag/Bagging= a mask with a bag attached.  The mask covers the nose and mouth.  The medical personal will squeeze the bag to force breaths of air into the person to inflate the lungs.  The mask and bag are typically connected to O2 also.

Bed Sore=Pressure sore.  These happen when someone who is non-mobile lays or sits in one position for an extended period of time.  When someone is dehydrated they are much more likely to develop bed sores.  When you are dehydrated your cells are flat instead of puffy, so the pressure from sitting or laying causes the cells/skin in an area to get red and to eventually become an open wound in left untreated.  Once a bed sore has formed on a certain area of the body the cells will NEVER fully heal.  It is like a scar.  The person will ALWAYS be more likely to get bed sores in that area for the rest of their life.  You are more likely to get bed sores on your "bony prominences", these include your ears, occipital (back of your head), elbows, ankles, heels.  Ellie is not mobile.  She moves her arms a tiny bit and her head a tiny bit...but other than that she basically lays there...so she is very prone to getting bed sores.  It is especially difficult when she is really sick and her airway is so fragile that sometimes to protect her airway, you realistically just have to let her lay there in a certain position to keep her alive.

Bipap= a machine that provides breaths of air through a tube connected to a mask that covers either your nose or your mouth and nose.  It has 2 levels of air being pushed into you (hence why it is called "bi" pap).  1 level pushes a breath of air into you.  The other level gives a constant pressure of air to keep the lungs open when exhaling.  In comparison, cpap only gives the breath of air, but does not five a constant pressure.  She is on Bipap at home also, but only at night.  Her home settings are 16/8 (pronounced 16 over 8) with a rate of 12.  Meaning it delivers 12 breaths per minute.

BG= Blood Glucose, Blood sugar, Glucose.  Ellie's BG is normally 90-110.  She has hypoglycemia which means low blood sugar.  Low BG is more dangerous then high, acutely (see "acute").  BG spikes when you eat, your body produces insulin which brings BG back down.  Ellie takes medicine, Proglycem (See "Proglycem") to block her insulin because we don't want her BG to come down at all.

Blood Glucose= See BG

Blood Sugar= See BG

Bradicardia=Low Heart Rate as opposed to Tachicardia which is high heartrate.

Breathing Treatments=a combination of machines, techniques, suctioning and meds that help clear secretions out of the lungs. At home and in the hospital Ellie uses a vibrating vest, a med to calm and open her lungs and a med to break up secretions.  In the hospital they usually just increase the frequency.  It is probably the most important things we do to keep Ellie healthy, other than hand washing.

Cap Gas= Capillary Blood Gas.  This is a finger poke that they look at how much CO2 is in her blood.  We breathe in Oxygen (O2) and breathe out Carbon Dioxide (CO2).  If you are retaining (not exhaling) your CO2 then that means you are not "ventilating" enough.

Cardiology= Heart Dr.

CO2=  Carbon Dioxide.  1 carbon molecule (C) and 2 oxygen molecules (O2) combined make CO2.  It is what we breathe out when we exhale.  We do not want to retain (keep) CO2 in our body.

Continuous Feeds=  Ellie gets all of her nutrition from a special medical formula.  It is given to her by a feeding pump that delivers a certain rate (a certain amount of formula each hour).  She is on continuous feeds which means she gets a little formula all the time equally over 24 hours.  The feeding pump is connected through tubing to her gtube (see "gtube").

Culture=A sample taken from the body (urine, blood, ear drainage etc) and placed in a petri dish in ideal conditions (the right temp and lighting etc).  It is encouraged to grow.  They are then able to see with microscope what bugs grow out of it.  They can also put little drops of various antibiotics on it to see which antibiotics make it die (see "susceptible")

Diaphragm=an organ between the lungs and abdomen.  Helps with breathing.

Draws/Drawing= Removing blood from the body.  "Drawing" blood from the body.

Dressings= bandages, etc

EKG-= ElectroCardioGram.  A machine that measures the electrical activity in your heart.  There are electrodes that go from the machine and stick on your chest.  It collects the data and prints it out on a strip of paper for the Dr. to look at.  It prints off in a waveform.

Endocrinology=  A Dr. that specializes in hormones, diabetes, thyroid, endocrine systems.

Feeds= Ellie gets all of her nutrition from a special medical formula.  It is given to her by a feeding pump that delivers a certain rate (a certain amount of formula each hour).  She is on continuous feeds which means she gets a little formula all the time equally over 24 hours.  The feeding pump is connected through tubing to her gtube (see "gtube").  Giving her formula is called giving her "feeds".

FiO2= Fraction of Inspired Oxygen.  Oxygen at home either through bipap or through nasal cannual is measured by liters per minute.  The liters per minute is 100% oxygen and the liters per minute is how much is being delivered at once (think of a small stream of water versus a more raging river).  Oxygen through a bipap or ventilator in the hospital is measured by FiO2 % NOT liters per minute.  They are not exactly comparable.  But approximately 30% FiO2 is approximately 2 liters.  FiO2 goes up to 100% Oxygen.  As a comparison, "room air" (the air we breathe) is 21% oxygen.

Glucose= see BG

Gtube= Gastrostomy tube.  Gastro means stomach and ostomy means hole in the body.  Ellie has a gube that she gets food and medicine through.  A gtube is a 1 way valve like a straw that has a port on the outside of belly and goes directly into her stomach.  This bypasses her mouth and throat since she does not/cannot eat orally (only licks and tastes).

Hard to Bag=  It is difficult to force breaths of air with the bag into her when she is struggling with her sats.

Hypoglycemia= Hypo means low.  Glyce means glucose.  Emia means blood.  So Hypoglycemia means low blood sugar (See BG).  Ellie has hypoglycemia.  Low blood sugar is more dangerous acutely (see "acute") than high blood sugar.  

Hyper-oxygenate= (Pre-oxygenate).  Hyper means high.  Oxygenate means increasing the oxygen that is in a persons blood.  Hyper-oxygenate would mean to increase the amount of oxygen a person is getting in order to temporarily raise sats so that you can do a procedure.  Then when the persons sats lower with the procedure, the sats don't have to come back up quite as far.

ID/Infectious Disease=they are the specialists for antibiotics and superbugs and virus and bacterial infections.

IHC= Intermountain Health Care.  They are a large medical (probably the largest) company here in Utah.  They own hospitals, health insurance companies,homecare companies and home medical supply companies.  Primary Children's is an IHC facility.

Inhaled meds= a liquid medicine has air pushed through it and this makes the medicine become on aerosol that the person breathes into their lungs.

Intubate/Intubated= A breathing tube in the mouth and down into the throat.  It would also be connected to a ventilator (vent) which would deliver breaths of air

KUB= abdominal xray.  Often used to look at how much stool and gas are in your intestines/stomach.

Lasix= An IV medication used to get off the extra fluids stored in your cells (when you are puffy or retaining fluids (from the IV fluids).  Sometimes it is necessary to give lasix, but (at least with Ellie) it often leads to a vicious cycle of peeing out fluids, then her electrolytes drop, they they replace the electrolytes with more IV fluids, then her cells hold onto the fluids (She gets puffy), then they want to do more lasix.

NTU=NeuroScience Trauma Unit.  For spine and trauma (like car accident or drownings etc).  The inpatient unit that deals with the brain and spine.  It is right next door to PICU.  They have taken over part of NTU right now and are using it as a PICU Annex since PICU is so full.

Oral Medications= For Ellie...she does not eat or drink anything orally (only licking and tasting things).  So when we say oral meds, they are ones that could be taken orally if you were able to eat orally (as opposed to IV meds).  But for Ellie, oral meds are given through her G-tube.  We either get a liquid version or we crush the pill and mix it with water to give through the gtube.

PCH= Primary Children's Hospital

Peak=When the symptoms of an illness is at it worst. 

PEEP= the amount of constant pressure needed to just keep the lungs open.  A peep of 14 is a moderate to high amount. (see "Vent Settings")

PICC-A central line.  Pronounced "pick".  This is like a more permanent IV.  It is placed in a large vein in one of the arms and a small catheter (tube) is threaded through the vein and empties right above the heart.  So when you give IV medicines, the medicine gets to the heart faster.  PICC lines do not "blow" or go bad like IV's do.  PICC lines have a few small stitches to hold them in place.  You do need to be careful with PICC lines to keep them clean, if they get infected, it is very dangerous since it is a line directly to the heart.  One advantage to a PICC line is that you can both give IV meds and you can pull back blood from the PICC.  You usually cannot pull back blood from an IV.  So if you have an IV and you need blood you have to do another poke.  Ellie has had at least 2 PICC lines (at 2 different times) before.

PICU=Pediatric Intensive Care Unit

Precautions=  Depending on what type of virus/bacteria/illness the person is diagnosed with will determine the type of protection Dr and nurses need to wear when entering a patient's room.  It may include a disposable gown (over their clothes), gloves, fluid shield mask, N95 mask, etc...  Different precautions are to prevent the spread of disease form 1 person to another in the hopsital.

Pressure Control= The basic vent settings deliver a certain volume of air no matter what.  Pressure control is a vent setting that is a step up.  Pressure control senses how much pressure is required to deliver that air into the lungs.  Pressure control works better on really sick lungs and/or stiff lungs.  the amount of constant pressure needed to just keep the lungs open.  A peep of 14 is a moderate to high amount.

Pressure Sore= See Bed Sore

Primary's= Priamary Children's Hospital.

Proglycem=  (Diazoxide).  Ellie has hypoglycemia (See " hypoglycemia").  She takes proglycem (a medicine) to block her insulin.  BG (see "BG") spikes when you eat, your body produces insulin which brings BG back down.  Ellie needs the Proglycem to block the insulin her body produces so her blood sugar doesn't go any lower than it already is.  Proglycem is what is known as an "orphan drug".  It means not very many people take it (the demand is low).  So pharmaceutical companies do not want to manufacture it, because there is not a lot of money in it.  But the people who need it, absolutely must take it, it is a life-saving drug.  So the federal government subsidizes (gives money to) the pharmaceutical companies to make it.  With twice a day proglycem as well as continuous feeds (see "continuous feeds") she maintains normal blood sugars at all times (BG 90-110).

Prophylactic/Prophylactically= taking an antibiotic all of the time in order to kill/keep away a recurring infection.  Usually (but not always) the prophylactic antibiotic is not given all of the time.  For example it might be given for 2 weeks on and 2 weeks off.  Or it might be given Mon/Wed/Fri only.  This is so they don't build up a tolerance to it and create a super bug.  Ellie takes Azithromycin on M/W/F for recurring pseudomonas lung infectection (pneumonia).

Protected Brush=  It is gathering a sample from the lungs to see what (if any) bugs are growing in the lungs.  You can only do a protected brush if the person is intubated (and I think you can do it if they are trached also).  A long flexible tube is put down the intubation tube and when they hit the lungs they extend a small pipe cleaner type device from inside the tube.  They then retract the pipe cleaner back into the tube and pull the tube back out.

Pseudomonas=A bug that likes to grow in the lungs.  It is a common bug to grow if you have a trach or have recurring pneumonia.  Ellie currently has pseudomonas and has had it before.  It is very hard to kill permanently.  Once someone gets pseudomonas they are likely to get it again.

Recovering/Recover=bringing her sats (oxygen in blood) back up to normal after they have dropped too low.

Replace/Replacements= When certain blood numbers are low they will order to "replace" it.  So if someone's potassium is low, they might give a potassium supplement to "replace it".  In other words, to try and keep blood numbers within normal ranges by giving additional supplements when numbers are low.
Resistant Bugs=AKA Superbugs.  These are bugs that are resistant to being killed by antibiotics.  In which case you have to branch out to bigger or more unusual antibiotics that they reserve to use only on resistant bugs.  Resistant bugs are created from a person and society being on so many antibiotics.  You should only take antibiotics when needed.  You should always finish ALL of your course of antibiotics.  If you do not finish your course, then the bugs get stronger and learn to fight that antibiotic.  Never self treat with antibiotics be taking someone else's antibiotics or ordering antibiotics from another country.

Room air= this is the air all around us that we breathe.  It is comprised of 21% oxygen.

RT= Respiratory Therapist

Sats/Satting=(Saturation) Oxygen in blood.  Given in a percentage up to 100%.  We want it to be 90% or higher.

Settings=(See also "bipap") The amount of pressure and oxygen that the bipap is delivering.  Ellie's normal home settings are 16/8 with a rate of 12.  This is pronounced 16 over 8.  The 8 is the constant pressure that keeps her lungs open even with she exhales.  The 16 is the amount of pressure/force that she gets when the bipap machine delivers a breath of air.

Stoma= surgical hole in the body made for a more permanent purpose.  Such as a gtube or trach or colostomy.

Susceptible= When they grow a culture (see "culture") they will place drops of various antibiotics to see which ones will kill the bugs.  This tells the Dr. which drugs the bug is "susceptible" to.  Then the Dr. can prescribe the right drug to kill the bug.

Tamiflu=a medicine released by the CDC each year.  They formulate it differently each year to treat that years strain of the flu.  This will noe help with a cold, but can help with the flu.  You are prescribed a 5-7 day course of tamilflu and it can lesson the effects of the flu and/or shorten the effects of the flu.

Trach/Tracheostomy= Pronounced TRAKE.  The first part of the word, Trach, refers to Trachea (the part of your throat where air goes to and from the lungs).  Ostomy means hole in the body.  So a trach is a hole directly into your trachea (throat) that helps you breathe.  It is like a straw in your throat.  Instead of breathing through your nose and/or mouth, you would breathe through your trach.  If you cannot breathe on your own, then the trach would be connected to a vent (See "vent")

Ventilator/Vent=A machine that delivers breaths of air through a breathing tube while you are intubated (see "intubated") or trached.  A vent also monitors and helps with the breaths of air you exhale also.

Ventilating=  Breathing well.  Your lungs are filling up with air (O2) well enough and you are breathing out (exhaling) CO2 well enough.

Vent settings=  An example is PEEP of 14, Pinsp 28, f 12, FiO2 50%.  PEEP is Peak End Expitory Pressure.  So when the breath is done, how much pressure is the vent still giving just to keep the lungs open.  Pinsp is Peak inspitory pressure.  So, how much pressure is delivered when the vent gives a breath.  FiO2 is the percent of oxygen is in each breath.  Room air (the air we breathe) is 21%.  There are are other settings, but those are the big ones.  

Vitals:  HR means heartrate or the number of Beats Per Minute (BPM), Sats is the oxygen in the blood (see "sats"), RR means Respitatory Rate or the number of Breaths per minute.  Temp means core body temperature.  Ellie's normal vitals are sleeping HR 60-80, awake HR 70-95, sats 93-97,  sleeping RR 8-11, awake RR 12-20

Wound Team/Wound Care/Wound Nurses= These are nurses that deal with wounds such as bed sores, sores around stomas (See "stoma"), etc.  I do not love them.  I feel like I know as much as they do.  They come in and take a pic of the wound (which makes you feel like a bad Mom...that you haven't taken care of your child...not true...but Mom's are weird like that).  Then they always want to slather on creams and but dressings on everything.  My personal opinion on bed sores is that the best thing you can do is leave it open to the air and keep pressure off of the spot.  No amount of padding is going to take the pressure off.  Positioning is what keeps the pressure off.  I don't love creams (especially in the hospital) because with a new nurse every 12 hours...they want to wipe all the cream off to inspect the skin.  That causes more damage.  Put the cream on and leave it alone.